Emosi Di Malam Hari

Kadang-kadang kita rasa susah sangat nak menangisi kelemahan diri dan dosa yang dilakukan saban hari. Kadang-kadang sehingga kita bersangka itu kerana kerasnya hati kita.

Psikologinya, musik membantu manusia menghayati sesuatu dengan lebih baik. Justeru saya cadangkan anda pasangkan lagu-lagu belakang (baca : background music) yang mana dapat membantu anda menghayati apa yang dilalui anda hari ini sekaligus memohon ampun pada Allah akan kesalahan tersebut.

Ini senarai lagu saya, yang saya gunakan untuk membantu saya bermuhasabah diri.

Dalam berulang-ulang kali saya mainkan lagu tersebut, saya sebut dalam hati 'lirik-lirik' yang mengiringi music background. Sehinggalah saya rasa saya benar-benar berada di hadapan Allah, memohon ampun dan maaf atas kekhilafan diri dan apa yang saya perbuat saban hari. Justeru, saya rasakan muhasabah saya lebih efektif dan bermanfaat.

Anda pun perlu sertakan 'lirik' anda agar anda dapat merasakan indahnya bermuhasabah sekaligus menyucikan hati ini. Lebih baik lagi, kalau anda dapat mengungkapkan "Andai aku ini mati selepas ini wahai Allah..". Sebab kata Imam Ghazali, antara perkara yang melembutkan hati adalah dengan mengingati mati.

P/s : Saya bukan orang yang boleh duduk bertapa dalam gua hendak bermuhasabah diri dan berkhulwah dengan Allah ini. Silap hari bulan, tersesat pun boleh. Jadi ini cara saya dalam bermuhasabah. Cubalah, anda pasti sukakannya. Dunia hari ini makin moden, guna dan salurkan ia kearah kebaikan, moga Allah kira sebagai amal ibadah kita InsyaAllah.

Darren Shan Books

I was so not interested into reading books. It was true until I was introduced by my friend to a novel entitled "Darren Shan : The Vampire Assistant". At that particular time, there was 9 book of Darren Shan in his possession.

I gave him a try and it amazed me how the Vampire 'actually' live. The author made the character looks alive along the story line. And somehow I was able to finish all the 9 books in 2 weeks. (^^)

Few months after that, the fourth trilogy came out. I asked my friend to bring them to the hostel as fast as possible. It somehow drove me crazy to know the end of the story.

"Can Darren become the Vampire King?"
"Who will die in the end actually?"
"How the Vampire and the Vampaneze fight each other?"
"The story keeps becoming interesting!"

So on and so forth. It was a relieve you know, when the end ends as expected, although it follow a long way  course around the predicted one (It can end easily, but yeah, the author wants to make money as well).

Thereafter, i told myself, i cannot read any novel like this trilogy. 12 books as a total drove me crazy over months because everything that i read will be somehow repeated over and over in my mind just before I got to sleep. Thus, I cause me daytime sleepiness!.

When everything back to normal, I did end up lazier than ever to read any other books. (^^)

Here's the total 12 books.

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Here goes the movie of this trilogy.

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P/s : I admired everything I've read about this books so far. But I got medical books to read all night!. Wish me luck!.

We Are All Loo Jo Yee

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 Alhamdulillah.

There's nothing else I can say except praising Allah for what I heard. He had given her Hidayah that turn her to her fitrah of being a Muslim.

Though this story have been long publicized in social networks, I just want to write an article as a tribute to her. A welcoming article to keep her stronger each and every day of being a Muslim!.

Convert or Revert

Words above described when someone changes their religion. The different is that revert is used when someone changed back to their own original religion.

In fact, we always misused the word convert when someone become Muslim. It's wrong actually because we are Muslim once we were born in this world. It's just our parent that shaped us either to become a Muslim or not in later part of our life. Christian parents will teach their children their belief and so thus the other religions.

So when someone return back to Islam, they actually reverted to their original religion, becoming a Muslim.

Loo Jo Yee

When first I heard her name, I asked myself, "Is she a Korean or what?". Then only later I know that she is actually a Chinese girl. A cute one.

I believe her story and videos are already everywhere so i won't talk about her much.

What I admire her the most and what should we reflect back to ourselves?

She reads Quran even though she was a non-Muslim at that time but do we read even a page of Quran everyday?.

She understands the content of Quran but do we understand it the way she did?.

She reads the story of Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him but we don't even know his story that much.

She seeks the knowledge of Islam even though at that particular time she just wants to search for debatable topics with her Muslim friends. We instead just using most of our time gaining 'knowledge' from Facebook.

See how much the differences between us. She found Islam through her searching effort but we 'gain' Islam since we were born. She appreciated Islam very much but we didn't even care to practice Islam as a whole.

We Discriminate

This is a shame to Islam itself. We Muslims actually did not practice Islam as a whole and even discriminate our new brothers and sisters in Islam.

We cause them distress. We put them to a corner where they couldn't respond to our discrimination.

"Close your aurat first, if not you cannot enter the Masjid"

"Perform solah, if not, you are not a Muslim"

"Do you really want to be a Muslim?. What is your intention actually?."

We question their intention too much and it's actually really fragile.

They keep thinking if they want to be a Muslim, they would have to cut off their relationship with their family. This false belief actually make them scared.

And there are actually a lot more things that make them waver to become a Muslim. And we add-on the causes even more. Never once our Muslim society treat our new brother and sister nicely. What did we gave them is only discrimination.

What differentiate a Muslim in the eye of Allah?

Money?. No.

How long have you been a Muslim?. Totally a No.

Our level of Taqwa. Correct.

So, we actually don't know if we are better than them. In fact, most of them are much better than us. They are much eager to invite people to Allah than us.

Weird, but that's the reality.

Say No to Discrimination!.

Do Not Love

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I was wondering how two person who actually never meet each other can love for the sake of Allah. What I really mean is a relationship between a man and a woman.

It really bothering me the past few years. My Muslim's friend actually got into this couple thingy and told me that it is not possible to love someone you don't really know.

Is it true?.

Nah, it wasn't true at all. Everything has been answered for me.

I've never met this 'someone' and I think I will fall in love with her. Of course, it will be later after our marriage. But how can this happen?. Only Allah has the answer.

Two person that love Allah before anything else can can meet for the first time and get married.

Two person that love Allah before anything else can somehow meet in an awkward situation and get married.

Two person that love Allah before anything else can somehow know each other from a social network and get married.

Two person that love Allah before anything else can somehow know each other beforehand and keep to themselves, and after fully prepared later they get married.

Two person that love Allah before anything else can somehow meet in the path of Allah and get married.

To have to know first about each other is not the reason why we cannot love that particular 'someone'. That is just your reasoning, but Allah can make something happen without any reason.

My bit of advices;

(1) Let Allah be your first love, you'll find yourself the second one later.
(2) Love Allah by heart, and ask Him find that 'someone' with His guidance.
(3) Pray to Allah with pure heart, He will ease you to find those who love Him wholeheartedly day and night.

Istikharah Prayer

Jabir said, "The Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, used to teach us the istikhara, asking for the good in all matters, as he would teach us a sura of the Qur'an. He said, 'When one of you is intending to do something, he should pray two rak'ats outside the obligatory prayer and then say, 'O Allah, I ask You for the best by Your knowledge and I ask You for strength by Your power and I ask You for some of Your immense bounty. You have power and I do not. You know and I do not. You are the Knower of the Unseen worlds. O Allah, if You know that this matter is good for me in my deen and my livelihood and the end of my affair (or he said, 'my affair sooner and later'), then ordain it for me and make it easy for me and then bless me in it. If You know that this matter is bad for me in my deen and my livelihood and the end of my affair (or he said, 'my affair sooner and later'), then avert it from me and avert me from it and ordain something better for me wherever it may lie and make me content with it.' He added, 'Then he should name the thing he wants to do.'" [al-Bukhari]

This hadith is taken from Riyad As-Salihin, by Al-Imam An-Nawawi. It teaches us how to perform istikharah prayer and the dua right after.

We make decision in every daily events, the small or large event, it doesn't matter. What's actually matter is that we pray to Allah so that every decision we make is a right and good decision. As Allah knows what is the best for us, we pray to Allah so that every decision we make will be the best for us.

P/s: The dua was actually Arabic, but i only found this English transliteration. Do open some books related to the Istikharah prayer and look for the Arabic version of this dua. May Allah ease everything you do my brother.

Yang Tidak Berisi, Tidak Bisa Mengisi

 

Pada saya, satu gambar mampu menceritakan 1001 perkara. Gambar di atas amat-amat membuat saya termenung, terpaku, membisu dan pelbagai lagi kata yang tidak mampu diungkapkan.

Saya kini sudah menjejakkan kaki ke tahun 4 pengajian perubatan, satu jurusan yang sangat memakan masa dan tenaga yang ada. Jika pulang daripada wad, atau klinik, pasti katil menjadi pilihan. Ia kehidupan yang sangat meletihkan.

Namun pernah diimbas kembali, bahawa saya ini hidup di bumi yang bertuah, bumi yang dipenuhi dengan majlis ilmu saban hari. Pantang kalau bercuti di rumah, sempat pula dicari kuliah-kuliah, ceramah-ceramah dan sebagainya. Kalau sempat, berprogram pula dengan ikhwah-ikhwah yang ada.

Tetapi lain pula keadaan di sini. Jauh betul saya daripada majlis-majlis ilmu sebegini. Kebanyakan masa memang tercurah untuk pelajaran, dan sebahagiannya pula digunakan untuk mentelaah bahan-bahan usrah dan menghadiri program-program yang disusun saban minggu.

Namun, ianya tidak cukup.

Seperti yang dimaksudkan gambar di atas, yang tidak terisi, tidak bisa mengisi.

Pengalaman lampau mengimbau kembali apabila saya terlihat kitab-kitab bahasa Arab di surau hostel saya kini; Riyadussolihin, Fiqh Sunnah, Tafsir Ibnu Kathir dan sebagainya. Kitab-kitab ini gah tersusun disuatu sudut tanpa ada insan yang menyentuhnya. Berhabuk pula. Kitab-kitab ini dulu kitab-kitab yang saya duduk menghayati bersama para ustaz di zaman sekolah, walaupun bahasanya bahasa Arab, namun isi kandungannya difahami juga. Perkataan demi perkataan, ayat demi ayat, perenggan demi perenggan, dan muka demi muka. Sungguh tebal dengan ilmunya.

Kitab-kitab itu saya buka dan belek halamannya. Hati jadi hiba, mengenangkan betapa lama dan jauhnya saya dari tenggelam mencari, mendalami ilmu sebegini. Ada sebahagian perkataan Arab itu saya masih fahami, kebanyakannya saya tercari-cari maksudnya. Lalu saya berdoa dalam hati.

"Wahai Allah, aku merindui untuk mendalami agama yang diredhaimu. Aku tahu minat sebenarku bukan pada bidang perubatan, tetapi pada bidang keagamaan. Tetapi aku redha bahawa apa yang Engkau tetapkan bagiku dalam bidang perubatan ini, adalah sesuatu hikmah yang masih belum aku fahami. Sabda kekasihMu, barangsiapa yang Engkau kehendaki kebaikan baginya, maka Engkau akan fahamkan dia dengan agama. Justeru itu, jadikanlah aku ini dikalangan mereka yang Engkau fahamkan agamaMu."

Menghitung masa yang telah berlalu, aduh, ruginya aku.

Lupanya Kamu

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Kamu selalu lupa untuk mengucapkan syukur pada Allah apabila bangun daripada tidur. Sedangkan Allah  memberikanmu peluang hidup lagi setelah mematikanmu. Lupanya kamu.

اَلْحَمْدُ لله الَّذِى اَحْيَانَا بَعْدَمَا اَمَاتَنَا وَاِلَيْهِ النُّشُوْرَ

"Segala puji bagi Allah yang telah menghidupkan kami setelah mematikan kami, dan hanya kepadaNya lah tempat kembali"

Kamu selalu lupa untuk memohon pada Allah agar melindungimu daripada gangguan syaitan ketika kamu menggunakan bilik air. Tetapi Allah bermurah hati melindungimu daripadanya. Lupanya kamu.

اَللَّهُمَّ اِنِّى اَعُوذُبِكَ مِنَ الْخُبْثِ وَالْخَبَائِثِ

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepadaMu daripada syaitan jantan dan syaitan betina"

غُفْرَا نَكَ الله الَّذِى اَذْهَبَ عَنّى الأذَى وَعَا فَانِى

"Aku memohon kepada Engkau, yang telah menghilangkan gangguan dariku dan memberikan kesihatan"

Kamu selalu lupa memohon pada Allah sebelum makan, agar diberkati rezeqimu dan mengharapkan rezeqimu halal agar tidak dihumban kamu nanti ke dalam api neraka. Tetapi Allah memberkati rezeqimu, mengenyangkanmu, dan memberikan tenaga kepadamu. Lupanya kamu.

اَللَّهُمَّ بَارِكْ لَنَا فِيْمَا رَزَقْتَنَا وَقِنَا عَذَابً النَّارِ

"Ya Allah, berkatilah rezeqi yang Engkau berikan kepada kami, dan peliharalah kami dari siksa api neraka"

Seringkali juga kamu terlupa mengucapkan syukur kepada Allah selepas makan. Tetapi Allah telah memberikanmu makan dan minum dan menjadikanmu seorang Muslim. Lupanya kamu.

اَلْحَمْدُ لله الَّذِى اَطْعَمَنَا وَسَقَانَا وَجَعَلَنَا مِنَ الْمُسْلِمِيْنَ

"Segala puji bagi Allah yang telah memberi kami makan dan minum serta menjadikan kami seorang Muslim"

Kamu selalu lupa untuk bertawakkal kepada Allah setiap kali kamu menjejakkan kaki keluar daripada rumahmu. Tetapi Allah menyelamatkan kamu dari segala perkara yang membahayakan nyawamu di sepanjang pemergianmu. Lupanya kamu.

بِسْمِ الله تَوَكَّلْتُ عَلَى الله ,لا حَوْلَ وَلا قُوَّةَ الا بِالله

"Dengan menyebut nama Allah, aku menyerahkan diriku kepada Allah dan tidak ada daya dan kekuatan selain dengan Allah sahaja"

Kamu selalu lupa untuk memohon kemudahan dan kesejahteraan sewaktu menaiki kenderaanmu. Tetapi Allah menyelamatkan bagi kamu, perjalanan pergi dan pulang kamu. Lupanya kamu.

سُبْحَانَ الَّذِى سَخَرَلَنَا هَذَا وَمَا كُنَّا لَهُ مُقْرِنِيْنَ وَاَنَّ إِلَى رَبِّنَا لَمُنْقَلِبُوْنَ

"Maha suci Allah yang memudahkan kenderaan ini bagi kami, sedangkan kami tidak mampu memudahkan kepadaNya, dan kepada Allah kami kembali"

Kamu juga akhirnya lupa untuk menyebut nama Tuhanmu sebelum kamu tidur. Tetapi Allah Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang, Dia menghidupkanmu semula selepas mematikanmu. Lupanya kamu.

بِاسْمِكَ اللَّهُمَّ اَمُوتُ وَاَحْيَا

"Dengan namaMu Ya Allah yang menghidupkan dan mematikan"

P/s: Buat saya dan kamu yang sentiasa lupa. (^_^)