One of my greatest fear is becoming an
Imam in the congregation prayer (
Solah). On top of that,
Imam of
Tarawikh prayers. However, tonight marks the night I've overcome that fear!.
I really can't imagine what is the feeling being in front of there. My visual acuity is not 6/6 for both eyes. It is 12/6 i think. I've to wear spectacles to see clearly. I can't see clearly The
Quran opened in front of me without wearing spectacles. This is my greatest fear, because as an Imam, I have to read something from The
Quran.
Tonight's
Imam schedule should be one of
Imam from the Islamic Center, in my university. Unfortunately, he wasn't there just now. And I was asked to take over his place instead!.
"Oh my God, what if I can't see a thing in front of there?. I haven't been able to recall the
Surah I've been remembered in this short amount of time. What if I make a mistake during recalling the
Surah?. I need to recall first or else I'll make
Tajweed mistakes as well. In only few seconds more, what should I do?. Ease me oh Allah!" I prayed hard silently. Only Allah knows how I was trembling just now.
Slowly, I opened The Quran and put it in front of me. Suddenly, from the where I stood, I can see clearly everything in The Holy Book. I forgot about my spectacles, I was wearing it!. I don't usually bring it during my prayer.
Alhamdulillah!, praises be upon Allah swt!. I read everything near perfect, made a few minor mistakes and was able to finish the total of 15 rakaah of the
Tarawikh and
Witir prayers plus
Isya' prayer.
I don't think I'm able to sleep tonight!. Thanks oh Allah!. I've overcame one of my greatest fear!. Really really love You!. Hehe.